.August 3, 2009 @ 1:00 AM Y
princessangel
*hoping laogong sleeping soundly & dreaming of me now*
-hehehehehe-
While playing games (yeap lots of it) at one go, suddenly feel so lonely..
I guess im used to having Laogong to be by my side when im playing games..
Its the first time im playing games till so late since i dun have to work tml (and the whole week of it). ><"!
Laogong, i loves you lots lots..
Sorry tat i still cant trust tat you will stay by me forever..
Sorry tat im always over-sensitive..
I always blame tat its your fault tat you hasnt given me enough security..
But its actually my own mind making me thinking nonsense..
Even when i had nightmare about laogong leaving me etc, i will blame everything on laogong..
I have no idea how to love a person completely..
Even when he browse through his ex comment on facebook, i will feel jealous.
I become negative and think he might leave me for her someday..
Or perhaps he might leave me for anyone else someday..
I become so moodly and wanting to pick a fight again..
Like what laogong said, im in love with him deeply..
I would never run away from him..
But, i dun feel the same towards him..
I always thinking he will leave me someday..
*sigh*
Told laogong i wan our ROM to be on his bday..
Reason being, if someday we get divorce, he will still remember me for LIFE.
I know im selfish to wan him to remember me when if someday we divorce.
But i still hope tat day will never come, so he will not have bitter bday every year..
Anyways, so sleepy now..
I cant wait for weekend to come, so i can hug laogong to bed at night..
Laogong, i love you lots!