.August 23, 2009 @ 11:55 PM Y
princessangel
From
here..
"Major depressive disorder (also known as clinical depression, major depression, unipolar depression, or unipolar disorder) is a
mental disorder characterized by an all-encompassing
low mood accompanied by
low self-esteem, and loss of interest or pleasure in normally enjoyable activities.
...............
Major depression is a serious illness that affects a person's family and personal relationships, work or school life, sleeping and eating habits, and general health.
[1] Its impact on functioning and well-being has been equated to that of chronic medical conditions such as
diabetes.
[2]A person suffering a
major depressive episode usually
exhibits a very low mood that pervades all aspects of life and an inability to experience pleasure in activities that formerly were enjoyed. Depressed people may be
preoccupied with, or ruminate over, thoughts and feelings of worthlessness, inappropriate guilt or regret, helplessness, hopelessness, and self-hatred. [3] Other symptoms include
poor concentration and memory (especially in those with
melancholic or
psychotic features),
[4] withdrawal from social situations and activities, reduced sex drive, and thoughts of death or suicide.
Insomnia is common: in the typical pattern, a person wakes very early and is unable to get back to sleep.
[5] Hypersomnia, or oversleeping, is less common.
[5] Appetite often decreases, with resulting weight loss, although increased appetite and weight gain occasionally occur.
[3] The person may report multiple physical symptoms such as
fatigue, headaches, or digestive problems; physical complaints are the most common presenting problem in developing countries according to the
World Health Organization's criteria of depression.
[6] Family and friends may notice that the person's behavior is either
agitated or
lethargic.
[5]"
I think im starting to have the systom i highlighted in red..
Im feeling scare.. But tats really the cause, for the last few days...
Oh well, lets see...
.August 11, 2009 @ 11:30 PM Y
princessangel
I guess laogong is demanding a update from me, cuz he has been asking me why didnt i update..
Every monday awaiting for weekend.
How tough life is, to wait for time slowly passes by..
Laogong still hasnt gotten consent from his parent for us to ROM on his birthday on 2010.
I guess he's scare of his parent lol.. Im certain he didnt even show his mama the proposal ring he got for me..
Im sure his mama will say everything is too fast..
BUT, i just wanna be with laogong everyday.. How nice to hug him to bed everyday, even though he seldom hug me when he's sleeping though.. *sobx sobx*
This sunday is our 9th monthsary. Time flies..
We agreed in the first place not to celebrate monthsary, but it seems tat we are having good food always, on our monthsary. LOL!
For the least, we didnt waste $$ buying each other gift.. XD
Food is something to enjoy, and grow fat, follow by diet. HAHA!
.August 4, 2009 @ 1:49 AM Y
princessangel
Today browse & browse, den saw a forum discussing about whether your bf still love his ex.. While reading those points, my heart started to jump terribly hard, tat i could hardly breathe.. Immediately, i smsed laogong not to contact any of his ex anymore.. After his replied (on good side of course), i called him and started crying over the phone..
On a happier note (on my side), laogong said he will throw away everything he had with his ex (since i requested it), especially the ring which she proudly "design" the wordings. And im going to dump it down the outside bin to make sure nobody can retrieve it, unless you are the trash collector.
Im evil, so what? Im selfish, so what? Im mean, so what?
I dun ever feel im wrong in wanting my laogong to have his heart to only have me & ME!
Im not going to share my laogong with any girls/woman/ladies out there.
Like wad i said to laogong before, i will give both of them a slap IN PUBLIC if someday he really betray me..
Whenever im angry, i will either hit myself or him (poor laogong), so if he really did something wrong against my back, i will be most angry. Conclusion, i will just hit anyone i deem as doing me wrong.
Yes, i have mental problem. Tats the fact, and i admit to it!
I will proudly/gladly announce it to the whole world once i throw those stuffs away.
EVERYTHING, not even soft copies is allow!!
.August 3, 2009 @ 1:00 AM Y
princessangel
*hoping laogong sleeping soundly & dreaming of me now*
-hehehehehe-
While playing games (yeap lots of it) at one go, suddenly feel so lonely..
I guess im used to having Laogong to be by my side when im playing games..
Its the first time im playing games till so late since i dun have to work tml (and the whole week of it). ><"!
Laogong, i loves you lots lots..
Sorry tat i still cant trust tat you will stay by me forever..
Sorry tat im always over-sensitive..
I always blame tat its your fault tat you hasnt given me enough security..
But its actually my own mind making me thinking nonsense..
Even when i had nightmare about laogong leaving me etc, i will blame everything on laogong..
I have no idea how to love a person completely..
Even when he browse through his ex comment on facebook, i will feel jealous.
I become negative and think he might leave me for her someday..
Or perhaps he might leave me for anyone else someday..
I become so moodly and wanting to pick a fight again..
Like what laogong said, im in love with him deeply..
I would never run away from him..
But, i dun feel the same towards him..
I always thinking he will leave me someday..
*sigh*
Told laogong i wan our ROM to be on his bday..
Reason being, if someday we get divorce, he will still remember me for LIFE.
I know im selfish to wan him to remember me when if someday we divorce.
But i still hope tat day will never come, so he will not have bitter bday every year..
Anyways, so sleepy now..
I cant wait for weekend to come, so i can hug laogong to bed at night..
Laogong, i love you lots!