.April 17, 2009 @ 12:26 AM Y
princessangel
Im bored and went on to goggle on "how to love a person".
Reason being, i feel tat i really dunno how to love a person.
Nice One Here~"How about the greatest couple, who's husband buys her flowers and gifts and takes her out on a regular basis, and we all say how lucky she is, and than BOOM... The next thing you hear is they are going through a bitter divorce.... and nobody can believe it. Why -
because he showed his love through guilt, but she never felt love, oh sure she got alot of flowers and gifts,
but none of that matters if you don't feel love."
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Actions speak louder than words. It's better to know someone loves you without being told 'cause anyone can say 'I love you' and also it does not matter how long you're together to say 'I love you' cause love has no time limit you go by when it's there it's there, say it when you feel it and it could be infatuation but I would hope you'd know the difference. "
"I will know that the person i love loves me too,
maybe if he always look for me, which made his day complete."
"
If there's a slight doubt in your mind that he / she doesn't love you back then he / she hasn't convinced you enough and therefore doesn't love you enough to make you believe how he / she feels.. therefore maybe doesn't feel that way at all.
Its not about you knowing if he / she loves you it's about him / her making you believe in it. "
Go on to the website to read more if you wanna learn the whole story..
Seriously, dun think i can do it perfectly, but i will try..
But before tat, can he do things which i really hoping for?
like those which i highlighted in red?=================================
Anyways he smsed me these As below:
Him: laopo, just read your blog. I love you too! Muacks!Me: i love you too! But actually nothing to loves about abt last night entry. One is not good at all! Hahas!Him: Its ok la. I trust you can le. *hugs*Me: I can wat?Him: You dun trust me nvm. I trust you can le.Me: You happy den like this say. If not.. Sigh!Him: You guai guai lor. Then i'll be happy every day.Quite happy at first with his reply. But the last sms really spoilt my everything!
Like what i highlighted (one of it), its you who doesnt make me feel secure so its your job to convince & make me believe... In order to stop worrying for this and that.. Which results in me throwing temper & make you unhappy.. And you are saying i am the one who always make you unhappy! *roars*
Whatever it is he is smart enough to call me when i sms him "sleeping now?". If not im sure i will start to be even worst moody!
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Carry on to have my dinner at living room and was telling mama tat his mama keep asking him to buy punggol flat. My mama was saying like we are not even real stable yet and shouldnt rush into buying flat. It comes to my mind tat is he really the one who i can and will be happy to stay with for the rest of the life?
Flat is a lifetime matter. So is marriage.
On regular basic he buy me breakfast, accompany me on weekends.
What i have is breakfast & his time..
But none of that matters if i don't feel love. (Sound familiar ne?)
To continue with 2 posts above..
Im the highest-maintence girlfriend in this world...
Like what he said before, he tired his best but seems like nothing he does make me happy..
I lost my way of happiness long ago. I could no longer be happy!
Nobody around me will be happy with me.. Im a curse!