.April 2, 2009 @ 12:01 AM Y
princessangel
He's sweet to me today. For some unknown reason.
However when im crying at opposite sofa and he called, how i wished he could come right away. But he didnt. I guess, i shouldnt have expect much from him.
Was great tat we didnt quarrel during lunch time, cuz im telling vanessa we might end up quarrelling. Oh well. He did pampered & "hon" me. Which im certain he havent been doing so for a long period of time. Was telling him to "hon" me everyday, since i dun have much days left.
He asked me not to leave him. If im going in *****days, bring him along. Why should i?! Im going hell and he's going heaven. Different route. No point dying with me isnt it?
Vanessa says i need to visit a psychiatrist cuz im getting more and more depressed. I think i need it too. If not i might end up going blind (crying everyday with AND without problems) or psychically bruised (hitting myself with AND without problems). Waste $$..
I just wanna die, seriously.. Nothing for me to stay in this world except to take care of my parent. But i guess my brother should be old enough to take care of them for me.
I have nothing to worry anymore.. Looking forward to *****days..................